The Old Diary

Sunday, April 27, 2008

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Here @ 5:38 AM

Friday, August 17, 2007

I dun understand why....whenever i wanna blog.... i just cant type any words out. Thats why i decided to start with that sentence first....Alot of things to say but i dun know how to place everything together. Well, i'm depressed totally.......with works... and many other things!!

Lets start with Work...

Others maybe thinking... i'm working fine at my company now...but ..... I dun like the life of working AT ALL....
Being a junior designer is not as easy as i thought......EVERYDAY i will face comments...Fake one and true one. I hate it.
I guess i'm a person that take words too easily..... I dun like the eyes she gave me....."GOU YEN KAN REN DI"

PLS STOP GIVING ME THAT KIND OF BLOODY HELL LOOK! Though i'm young, that's doesnt mean u can treat me like i dun know anything!!!

and oso

PLEASE DUN COMPARE!!!

Is not i dun know how to do....is just that i wanna make sure it is done this way....
Is not i am lazy.....is you never gave me a chance to do it on my own......
Is not i dun know anything......is you never believe in me

Is the hurt that i face....make me totally lost INTEREST in my job. I start to hate designing. I start to give crap. AND i start to lost confident in myself....Thats make u easily defeated me....

I just cant find the courage to stand out again....WIthout him with me is harder....I must be INDEPENDENT?!! But no one every gave me a chance...no one believe in me....no one understand how i felt when i actually cry is because " I AM ANGRY WHY YOU DUN GIVE ME TRY" and claim i dun know how to do anything LIKE I AM TOTALLY USELESS!!!

OH WELL, den just dun employ me....
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NOW COME TO FRIENDS

I dun wish to talk about it here. Coz is quite personal.

Zhang jie is in army..... but i really must Thanks this GIRL here for accompanying whenever i asked. Is LING LI!!
THanks ling! For being with me everytime! I really appreciate it!!!!!! It makes my days brighter going out with u almost every fridae!!!

All i just wanna say, is PLs dun make use of me....i am a human not a thing!!! and i got feeling...Thanks!

Sign Off
Beepeng

Here @ 8:48 PM

Saturday, May 12, 2007

It has been so long since i last blogged....lolz...(no more hearing of "Thursday = slack, boring and SIANZ day" from someone.... hhaahaha).....Just an update, i am now working in a design house name Clearedge. The people there are nice and fun!! At least better than that company.....

-_-"" who owned me ....my pay till now still haven give.

Sigh, days are getting extremely lonely and down whenever i came back from work....looking at the same direction whenever i open my house door.....he is not there anymore..... the hurt of losing him and the pain of not being able to save him.....make me feel miserable and guilty. Ever since he was brought home by me....my family became more lively....and now he is gone....everything just went back to the start.......................sitting at the sofa watching tv without his company.....using com without him lying on my desk...........no more calling "maomao" whenever i came home.......nth for me to look forward to go home....................................................when he is gone........part of me had already gone with him..............I miss you "mao mao" and mummy love you alot........................

Beepeng

Here @ 5:42 AM

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Thursday = boring, slack and SIANZ day!

So sianz.....what i have done today is just revision and more revision for the sitepoint contest.
The client is just so troublesome! But anyway they are the one giving the money, so i cannot say anything also. This coming Saturday is Ah ling birthday! Heeheez...we going out to watch The Lakehouse! I hope is not so touching like the Notebook lolx course i scare i cry in the cinema. (will be so pai seh) lolx....

I start to wonder, what i'm going to be when i graduate? Looks like being a graphic design is not as easy as i thought. Gonna work harder le!!! I wan to be able to take care of my parents when they are old (not like her).

(Yao pin cai hui win!!!) lolx

Here @ 3:35 AM

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Understand

I dun understand.....why is it that i am always the one treated so unfairly......No matter how much i put in... i just doesnt get back any........ I hope someone can understand....be there for me when i need someone to talk to....to lean on to........to cry to....... I know he will be the only one. =)

Everytime i think of him, i feel better......... thanks pork.
Even though the world look down on me, rejected me....i know you wont. Course i know you will always be wif me.........................................................................................................................................

I think i feel better after venting out my feeling. =)
Jia you Beepeng!
One day dey will understand.......

Here @ 7:47 AM

Monday, July 03, 2006

The Notebook

OMG! It is the nicest movie i ever watch...i know i am outdated because this movie had been released long ago...lolx....but it really touch my heart.....got some part really make me feel like crying......I learn to cherish my love one and the time spend with them..........

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Here @ 7:06 AM

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Happy Birthday to me! =)

Here @ 9:05 AM