Lo[s]t M[e]m[o]ries

2008-04-27T05:38:00.000-07:00

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Is time for me to shout out!!

2007-08-17T20:48:00.000-07:00

I dun understand why....whenever i wanna blog.... i just cant type any words out. Thats why i decided to start with that sentence first....Alot of things to say but i dun know how to place everything together. Well, i'm depressed totally.......with works... and many other things!!

Lets start with Work...

Others maybe thinking... i'm working fine at my company now...but ..... I dun like the life of working AT ALL....
Being a junior designer is not as easy as i thought......EVERYDAY i will face comments...Fake one and true one. I hate it.
I guess i'm a person that take words too easily..... I dun like the eyes she gave me....."GOU YEN KAN REN DI"

PLS STOP GIVING ME THAT KIND OF BLOODY HELL LOOK! Though i'm young, that's doesnt mean u can treat me like i dun know anything!!!

and oso

PLEASE DUN COMPARE!!!

Is not i dun know how to do....is just that i wanna make sure it is done this way....
Is not i am lazy.....is you never gave me a chance to do it on my own......
Is not i dun know anything......is you never believe in me

Is the hurt that i face....make me totally lost INTEREST in my job. I start to hate designing. I start to give crap. AND i start to lost confident in myself....Thats make u easily defeated me....

I just cant find the courage to stand out again....WIthout him with me is harder....I must be INDEPENDENT?!! But no one every gave me a chance...no one believe in me....no one understand how i felt when i actually cry is because " I AM ANGRY WHY YOU DUN GIVE ME TRY" and claim i dun know how to do anything LIKE I AM TOTALLY USELESS!!!

OH WELL, den just dun employ me....
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NOW COME TO FRIENDS

I dun wish to talk about it here. Coz is quite personal.

Zhang jie is in army..... but i really must Thanks this GIRL here for accompanying whenever i asked. Is LING LI!!
THanks ling! For being with me everytime! I really appreciate it!!!!!! It makes my days brighter going out with u almost every fridae!!!

All i just wanna say, is PLs dun make use of me....i am a human not a thing!!! and i got feeling...Thanks!

Sign Off
Beepeng

Start of a new chapter

2007-05-12T05:42:00.000-07:00

It has been so long since i last blogged....lolz...(no more hearing of "Thursday = slack, boring and SIANZ day" from someone.... hhaahaha).....Just an update, i am now working in a design house name Clearedge. The people there are nice and fun!! At least better than that company.....

-_-"" who owned me ....my pay till now still haven give.

Sigh, days are getting extremely lonely and down whenever i came back from work....looking at the same direction whenever i open my house door.....he is not there anymore..... the hurt of losing him and the pain of not being able to save him.....make me feel miserable and guilty. Ever since he was brought home by me....my family became more lively....and now he is gone....everything just went back to the start.......................sitting at the sofa watching tv without his company.....using com without him lying on my desk...........no more calling "maomao" whenever i came home.......nth for me to look forward to go home....................................................when he is gone........part of me had already gone with him..............I miss you "mao mao" and mummy love you alot........................

Beepeng

Boring thursday

2006-07-27T03:35:00.001-07:00

Thursday = boring, slack and SIANZ day!

So sianz.....what i have done today is just revision and more revision for the sitepoint contest.
The client is just so troublesome! But anyway they are the one giving the money, so i cannot say anything also. This coming Saturday is Ah ling birthday! Heeheez...we going out to watch The Lakehouse! I hope is not so touching like the Notebook lolx course i scare i cry in the cinema. (will be so pai seh) lolx....

I start to wonder, what i'm going to be when i graduate? Looks like being a graphic design is not as easy as i thought. Gonna work harder le!!! I wan to be able to take care of my parents when they are old (not like her).

(Yao pin cai hui win!!!) lolx

2006-07-27T03:35:00.000-07:00

2006-07-04T07:47:00.000-07:00

Understand

I dun understand.....why is it that i am always the one treated so unfairly......No matter how much i put in... i just doesnt get back any........ I hope someone can understand....be there for me when i need someone to talk to....to lean on to........to cry to....... I know he will be the only one. =)

Everytime i think of him, i feel better......... thanks pork.
Even though the world look down on me, rejected me....i know you wont. Course i know you will always be wif me.........................................................................................................................................

I think i feel better after venting out my feeling. =)
Jia you Beepeng!
One day dey will understand.......

2006-07-03T07:06:00.000-07:00

The Notebook

OMG! It is the nicest movie i ever watch...i know i am outdated because this movie had been released long ago...lolx....but it really touch my heart.....got some part really make me feel like crying......I learn to cherish my love one and the time spend with them..........

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go

2006-06-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to me! =)

2006-05-10T06:23:00.000-07:00

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

2006-05-01T03:22:00.000-07:00

Memories....

2006-04-18T09:23:00.000-07:00

frenz...

Friends. It is just a simple word..... Who are my friends? I used to think that friends were the people that i could laugh and talk to.
Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch my heart and someone who can see the truth and pain in me even when i am fooling everyone else.....
I could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of my life, just because it was with them.....

They knows wat "Three Little Pigs" , "Snow White and the 7 dwarfs", "Tu Zai Zhi", "Fragance", "Pair Pair", "Our netball match wif SCGS" means.
They're the people i can share my secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge me or make me change. They accept me exactly as i am....

We all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles......

Thank u guys for giving such a good memories....

2006-04-15T04:49:00.000-07:00

The Queen of Heart

Another illustration created todae...YAY!.....try some effects in illustrator.....to make the overall look shinning...... still think that the crown for the heart is too simple....but too complicated design make the overall look quite messy.... will improve on it.....

2006-04-14T00:12:00.000-07:00

GIRL POWER!

Did one illustration todae......after viewing the works in deviantart.com.....was kind of influenced by the style they use....lolz....

haiz....i miss the days in secondary school, when we always gather togther during recess time and after school.....waiting for one another to dismiss and go home together......I miss the days....
Xiang hui dao guo qu ......

Though we are all seperated now, but i still wish....that we can find some time to meet out againz..... i will nv forget u all.....take care frenz!

2006-03-17T02:58:00.000-08:00

This is the wolf that i have painted using the school walcom hahaha.... It took me around one week to do it because of my laziness!.....keep dragging....todae finally completed it..... It is not veri well done as it looks rather messy....LOL!! Hope can be approve for my minor project....

laogong at genting....me at singapore

2005-12-27T04:42:00.000-08:00

Sob.......tonite lonely nitez without my zhang jie.....hope he had fun over there.... heehee....i miss you dear!! and fei fei too......

Fei fei is veri naughty just now keep jumping out from the "cage".... went to catch him back he ran so fast....so cute!!!....LOL.....*naughty*

Now eating fish meat bee hoon for dinner....not bad lahz....but not as nice as the Bukit Merah one....lolz......

Todae....listen to a new song....which is the one playing now in my blog!!!.... lolz....Sang by S.H.E.....Tian hui.......heehee nice nice!!!!

2005-08-03T16:50:00.000-07:00

Where are my happiness?
Can u help me? can u help me find back my happiness? Where they gone? I am back to the same old stage like last time" lost "............LOST.....dun know who i can turn to..........dun know who can i tok to.............dun know wat can i do...............can u help me? i beg u..............please....... help me................or just take me away from here............ if life is so hard..........i choose to leave.......L.E.A.V.E

2005-07-26T17:51:00.000-07:00

Life is hard.............but i still must get going......

It had been so long ever since i updated my blog.....i was busying with my school works...and is really driving me crazy.....meiyi han ling.......i getting tire of sch.........and i miss u all so much......really very much.......haiz.......

"What are frenz for? They are for me to cherish..................i hope dey cherish me as i do..............."

dear u are the most important person in my life.......i love u

2005-06-22T20:58:00.000-07:00

God is fair

Everything is fated.... wat is meant to be....will be......
From today onwards, i will make myself happier than before.......
I wish i have an angel that will grant all my wishes.........
ALWAYS BE HAPPY........

2005-05-25T13:47:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR DEAR
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR DEAR DEAR
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST BEST BEST BEST LAOGONG....MUACK....

laogong.....happy 18th birthday....i wish you everyday happy.....everyday good health....everyday so SHUAI!.....everyday LOVE me...whahahah....and everyday GOT EVERYTHING U WAN!!!!!!!!!!!!! heeeeeeeeeee.............

Laopo wont leave u le.......coz i am alreadi stick to u like a SUPER GLUE....whahahahah........no one can seperate us......and i wont let anyone too........muackkkkkkkkkk.........love u always...zhang jie...laogugu whahaha

2005-05-25T13:43:00.000-07:00

My life.........

Hahaha...i was so bore...tat i start toking to myself....going to turn insane one day if sch dun reopen soon....JUST JOKING....lolz....oops i know my illness is getting serious....hahahha....hmmmm well lets tok sense...LOLZ......Have u wonder....wat are things that u need in your life.....Yahz...we need oxygen...we need water....we need food....we need MONEY....HAHAHA.....(this everyone oso need).....but for me...i dun think this is enough....in my life i wan alot of things......AND IS ALOT....am i greedy.....yes i am....everyone is i think...lolz.......coz human always wan more.....even they alreadi got wat they haf.....they nv feel contented.........hahaha......is born nature...in everyone ba........i not going to to say wat in need........coz......i wanna put in my heart whahhahaha......DUN TELL U ALL LEHZ!!!!! lolz.......heeeheeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeee........

2005-05-25T11:31:00.000-07:00

OH I IN IM NOW!!!!!!!!! SO HAPPY!!!!!!!

2005-05-23T15:36:00.000-07:00

As we grow old together...
as we continue to change with age...
There's one that never change...
i will always fall in love with you.........

2005-05-22T10:24:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY LAOGONG ZHANG JIE SO MUCH!!!! HOPE HE RECOVER SOON....

2005-05-21T11:53:00.000-07:00

i am just not good in everything........

2005-05-16T15:04:00.000-07:00

COLD COLD GENTING TRIP..... and i am missing u...

Have not been blogging veri long lolz..busy LAZYING! whahaha....holidays are so sianz....could not find a satisfy job....i am still the poor old me lolz........

Went to GENTING on the early morning saturday...so early!!!!!! tat i need to pull myself up from my cozy cozy bed hahaha.....SIGH!!!!!!! i will misssss my bao bei laogong so so so so much...cant slp without hearing his voice everynite!!!!....

We set off at 7.30am.... and journey to genting was damn long...i sit in the van till my buttock pain!!!! hahaha.......and i can only sleep and sleep and sleep in the van coz the scenary there was like ahmmmm TREES and MANY TREES and LOT OF TREES !!!!!! i was wondering why the malaysian love TREES SO MUCH! lolz whahahaha.....and is really alot!!!! u can picture how boring i am when i was in the van......whahahha......

Finally we reached the GENTING HIGHLAND is really high!! hahahah and VERIIIIIIIIII COLD!!! i was like shivering when i step out of the van......my cousin was so fascinated wif the THEME PARK tat she was dragging me in.........i wasn't really interested in it.... honestly.....whahaha....well i just accompany her........den when we went to buy the tickets the officer told us tat it was raining outside.......but my cousin still want to buy the tickets......ah ya....i got no choice lor...got to accompany and i bought one too......it was a one day package....so it cost RM34......sianz.......den waiting for the rain to stop........we went to catch a movie!!! hahhaa.....now i am more interested lolz...cost it is so cheap to watch movie there only RM10......whahaha.......BUT DEN!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! i was only able to watch roughly half of the movie........my cousin was like whining away....and she insisted to left the cinema...ARGH!!!!! i was a babysitter there taking care of this 17 years old ger!!!!!! haiz......wat to do i got to take care of her coz i am older and somemore 1 YEAR OLDER ONLY LEHZ!....lolz.......den when to see the theme park and it is still RAINING........not veri heavier but den the outdoor theme park was still close due to the safety........so nth to do and wasted the movie ticket....sob!!! and we just shop around lor........things at there was just the same price in Singapore....hahaha some even more ex!!! hahahahah.......only the PIZZA HUT and MOVIE there is more worth.......

Wondering wat i bought right? heehee i bought 2 radioactive tshirt whahahah.......i was waiting for so long finally got the chance to buy this radioactive shirt heehee and i bought a perfume for bodyshop......so fragrance.......HAHAHA i love it!!!!!!!!!! not forgetting abt my laogong gong heehee i bought 1 radioacticve shirt for him!!! i hope he like it......and one hamtaro sweet.....coz the hamster look like the HAM HAM in his pet shop whahahah so cuteeeeeeeeeee..........

Lastly.........on the sunday we left there at 3.30pm......and i reach home at 11 plus so lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and i was so excited to hear my laogong voice heee i called him right awayyyyyyyyy.................DEAR WO HAO XIANG NI ARHZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

2005-04-13T01:07:00.000-07:00

I LOVE GROUP 10!!!!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY TRICIA DOE AMY AND PEAR!!!!!!! I LOVE U ALL!!

To Tricisy: TRICIA!!!!!! u are the one i cant live without in school!!!!!! hhahaha i love all your jokes and laughter!!!!!!! u are SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!!!!! the one tat i can trust and the one i always wanna share things wif!!!!!! lolz...........U ROCKZ!!!!!! "i am touch when i saw your blog...so sweet!" lolz

To Doreen: THIS CUTE BLUR GER HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! is the one i will miss her when i didnt see her the whole day!!!!!!!!! hahahaha.......she is just sooooooo cute.......lolz.........and i love the way she complain things......."SI JIMMY KANG" LOLZ!!!!!!!!!! U ROCKZ TOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

To Amy: THIS GOOD LISTENER GER!!!!!!!! is the one i cherish most.....lolz........she is the one tat can always help me solve my problems......hahahah..... xie xie ni!!!!!!!!!!!! and i love the way she laugh......coz it make me wanna luff too when i saw her luffing lolz!!!!! I LOVE YOUR SMILE!!!!! U ROCKZZZZZZZZZ THREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

To Ah Pear: THIS SPORTY GER!!!!!!!!!!!!! is the one i must tok to always!!!!!!!! hahaahha lolz......i will rmb the days when we doing the stryboard project!!!!!!! hahahaa the days we work hard together and stress together lolz!!!!!!!!! HEEEEEEE!!!!!! u ROCKZZZZZZZZZ FOURRRRRRRRRRR

I LOVE U ALLLLLLLL VERI MUCH!!!!!!!!!! WE WILL BE BEST BEST BESTTTTTTTT FRENZ FOREVER AND EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-04-09T22:22:00.000-07:00

MEET THE PARENTS

Todae.......laogong come to my HOUSE....hahahah.....i am so happy....coz my dad gets to see him the first time......hahaha....HEE....in the afternoon laogong, me and my mummy went NTUC...lolz we bought alot of things home....carrying so many packet of things home was quite tiring..... lucky got my laogong help us take lolz...hee...when i saw my laogong toking happily wif my mum......i feel so XING FU...lolz....hahaha so happy tat they can get along so well......HEEHEE......actually my mum and i dun expect daddy will be back from work so early todae...so when we reach home and saw my dad was around we are so surprised...LOLZ....hahah...but den daddy didnt say anything when he saw laogong....he just smiling away....i think dad was surprised too...lolz.....can see from his face.....so funny.....HEE....den the whole afternoon laogong and i was playing games....lolz....firsly we install the ZOO TYCOON game to my com...as the installing takes a long time....so dear decide to play a board game.......IT WAS FUN and EXCITING lolz....heehee...den after tat dear went to play the YAHOO.....lemonade tycoon game....hahahah......he was so fascinated wif the game....lolz....he play till the game was expired lolx.......i was watching the ZHEN QING......hahaha........den IS DINNER TIME!!! mum specially cooked DRUMSTICK for dear dear..hahaha...and we both had a veri full full dinner........lolz.......the soup was YUMMY todae!....lolz.....overall........I AM JUST SO HAPPY TODAE!!!!! COZ THIS IS MY FIRST TIME TAT I BRING MY BOYFRIEND HOME!!! AND HE WILL BE THE LAST ONE I BRINGING HOME.......LOLZ never be replaced....muack u zhang jie my future husband =)

2005-04-07T00:21:00.000-07:00

HAPPY DINNER......

i love todae dinner...coz i was looking forward for it...and i long time nv had dinner wif my dear tricsy...doe...amy....an jie... and kelly...le....AND MY DEAREST LAOGONG.....HEE.......is fun being wif them....there are always laughter and joy...hahahah......hmmmm dear is veri cute todae...his blur face make me fall for him MORE and MORE....i just it so muchhhhhhhhh...........there is alot of laughters and jokes on the way home wif him........I AM SO HAPPY TODAE......lolz.......love u dear.......cherish u alot......ALOT.........just wanna be wif u...........JIAN JIAN DAN DAN AI!!!!!!! muack

2005-04-02T23:45:00.000-08:00

MY NEW BLOG TEMPLATE

hee hee......i like this blog veri much!!!!!!! lolz todae went my laogong hse.....dear dear i miss u againz...........i like the feeling when i was wif him........i always feel me and him like married long ago!!!!!!! hahaahha..............heehee...cant wait to be your real laopo!!!!!!! i love u dear! muack

2005-03-07T14:15:00.000-08:00

Chapter 7 Days are so tire....

So many assignments to do...finish one...comes another one....when will we haf a break?.....I miss HOLIDAYS.....hahaha....hmmmmm....this year are different from last year....there are so many changes....for the good and for the bad.....haiz....i hope it can be like last time....but i think...is impossible ba.......it makes me so tire tat i dun wanna bother about it anymore.....coz when thing changes it will never be the same againz....and wat for i sad about it.....stay happy SMILE....hahhaah my dear will be there for me no matter wat..... =) i wont be alone.......

2005-03-03T22:35:00.000-08:00

MY COM IS SPOILT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorri guys.........i have deleted my tagboard course my com is infected with virus!!!! dun know who the hell is tat...who tag in my blog!!! and gif me those shit URL!!!!!!!! omg!!! wat the hell!!! so idiotic...i hate my com!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna REFORMAT IT ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-02-08T13:35:00.000-08:00

Chapter 8 Happy New Year!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!! GONG XI FA
CAI...heehee.....tonite will be going to ah ma hse for dinner....dinner will be delicious coz i love my ah ma's cooking hahahah....oh no going to grow fat againz!!! arghz!....hahahaha better excercise more after new year....or else later zj dun wan me liaoz....whahahah joking....coz i know he wont lolz....i so good lolz...K i BHB againz.....well...once againz wish all my frenz HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! and best of luck for the year ahead!.....miss ya lots!!!!

2005-01-30T22:24:00.000-08:00

Chapter 3 A day i dun wanna remember....

Well....yesterdae i was rather disappointed.....but nvm is over.....i dun wanna tok abt it anymore....hmmm...dun worry....we will still be frienz like last time....just wanna forget everything and live for now....thks dear for your comfort....I Love You!!! hmmm todae....the whole afternoon doing my digital imaging.....do till quite sianz.....but manage to finish it....HEE....IS A PIGEON!!! ....lolz....and my mum god daughter came to visit us....she brought BABY RYAN along!!!! OMG he is so cute....jack jack look alike!!!.... i love him....heehee.....he is rather chubby and has a pair of big round eyes....so CUTE SIA!!!!.....yay! NEW YEAR will be seeing him againz.....see ya baby ryan!!

2005-01-28T23:27:00.000-08:00

Chapter 28 Our 100th days......

wow wow wow.....time just pass like a shooting stars....me and my zhang laoye...alreadi 100 days liaoz....hahaha....during this 100 days.......is just SO SO SO SO HAPPY and SWEET....everyday i just love him more than yesterday....and missing him every now and then.......really really cant imagine the days without him by my side....I LOVE U ZHANG JIE really alot...my heart for u is always so faithful and true....promise tat i will stay wif u no matter wat.........THOSE HARD AND HAPPY DAYS U GOT ME WIF U.....muack...!!!!!

2005-01-21T17:02:00.000-08:00

Chapter 21 Our 3rd Month

hahah...todae is me and my laogong de di san ge yue!!!...well...hahaha...days wif him are always so sweet and happy....i just simply love him more each day....and not forgetting to miss him everyday too....WO AI SI NI LE!!!!....i feel tat he is the one tat truly understand me the most.....i'm so fortunate to haf him as my bf....and my husband in 5 more years time....i just wont leave u no matter wat!!!!....i know he is the one tat wont hurt me....but love me..... xie xie ni zhang jie!!!!!!

2005-01-17T23:24:00.000-08:00

Chapter 17 As long as u are happy....i will be too

hmm.......well........dun know wat to say oso........just feel tat....frenz are veri important....so does my dear laogong too.....as long as they are happy....i will be too..........hmmmmm just wanna say sorry.......if my moody face spoil your day.......zhi xiang........yong yuan dou nen he ni men yi qi xiao yi qi ku......

2005-01-14T22:51:00.000-08:00

Chapter 14 Sport day

Well todae....in the morning i meet my laoye at YCK mrt but i was LATE againz...sorry my dear bao bei....let u wait for me so long....i will try to be more puntual next time......at 11.08 we haf a meeting wif GAIL....abt the open house on this coming wednesday.....sianz.........got to meet those o level students....and haf to take them around....wow i really dun know wat to tell them abt our SDN...lolx.....coz i dun like to tok to a crowd....feel so ps...lolx....but is an experience just try try lor...heehee........den after we haf our drawing lesson......well ok lahz quite interesting.....still drawing human construction....wondering how CALVIN TAN can draw so WELL and FAST....pei fu pei fu...lolx.....he is a good teacher i shld say... coz i learn quite a lot of things from him....lolx...den den FINALLY is OUR SPORT TIME!!!!!!!!! play netball todae againz....one word to describe FUN!!!!!! hahaha.......miss the days of my training in sec sch......wish tat i haf another chance to go for competition againz....i realise one thing...i love to call tricia ,TRICSY nowadays....hhahaha coz i love to see her tat cute and funny face when i call her tat.........really make me wanna luff out loud...hahahah...LOVE U TO BITS TRICSY..........u are so adorable.....hahahaha........dinner time wif dear laogong was not bad.....we 2 ate at the north canteen....and share a cookies and cream ice cream...YUMMY........den we went home.....i was tire and as usual i slept in the MRT againz.....lolx...........i haf a good slp.....and reach home at 9pm sharp......hahhaha................I LOVE MY ZHANG JIE VERI MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-10T10:21:00.000-08:00

Chapter 10.....His little action always make me feel so touch

hmm....todae went to watch the seed of chucky...lolz.....a lame show....keke.........and a saddist one oso.....but hahaha....i enjoy myself lahz.......DINNER was YUMMY!!!!!!......hahahah......well.......hahaha i feel so happi tat my nu er now is so xing fu keke........hmmmmmmmmm....u know u know........hahaha dear i am touch by your little action todae lolz.......when i see u searching for my tat CD.......watching u at a distance hahaha....it make me feel tat.......watever things i wan.....u always try your best to gif me......hahaha.... i feel so so molested........hmmm really thks u so much.......whenever i look at you and hug u in my arms....i always feel tat>>>>YES YES HE IS THE ONE I HAD BEEN WAITING FOR!!!!!>>>>>>> just wanna tell u.........thought i told u alots of time liaoz hahahaha.............I JUST WANNA TELL U EVERYDAY.........zhang jie i love you so so so MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHH................muack!!!!!

2005-01-08T22:20:00.000-08:00

Chapter 8........i am really angry this time!!

haiz.....i really veri on fire NOW!!!!! veri veri!!!!! i dun know why must "he" like tat suan me....having a BF oso got FAULT.... loving wif my BF oso got WRONG ma!!!!!!! i know u are referring to me in the MSN.......I KNOW!!!! why u dare to say dun dare to admit!!!!!!.........I WANNA TELL U!!!!!! u are the ONE making ME ANGRY!!!!!!! NOT ME MAKING U OK!!!!!..u come find trouble wif me for nothing!!!!! i hate tat!!!!!!!!! U SUX!!!!!!!.........haiz........why are my frenz becoming like tat.........they hate me is it? wats wrong wif me?........why must u all like treat me this way!!!!!! if tats the case.........i guess i shall leave silently.....

2005-01-06T23:26:00.000-08:00

Chapter 6........I LOVE ZHANG JIE!

i miss u i miss u i miss u!!!!!!!!! even i saw u the whole day......i still miss u when i nv see u for another second!!!!!!!!!!! I WANNA SAY OUT LOUD!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE ZHANG JIE!!!!!!!!!! he will be the man i'm going to marry to!!!!!!!!!!!!! just wanna say i love this guy more and more each day NV less!!!!!! and NEVER will be...............MUACK u dear!

2005-01-01T19:37:00.000-08:00

A NEW YEAR.....but a continual story wif him......

Chapter 1

Happy 2005 my dearest frenz!!!!!!!.....wow 2004 just past like a shooting star.......hmmmm a flash back of everything at that year.....................In 2004 January....what was i doing.....i was working in PENG CLINIC earning only $5oo dollars per month.....hahaha working there....is interesting.....but tough too.....IS MY FIRST WORKING EXPERIENCE....i work till the end of MAY and i stop working liaoz!!!!!! haahahah coz POLY is going to start le lor...heehee......and in JUNE...... i start my NEW POLY LIFE!!!!! hahaha is totally different to life in pri and sec.....more freedom and more challenging...HEE....and in NYP i make alots of GOOD GOOD GOOD in fact the BEST frenz i ever found!!!!!! I must say their name out!!! IS AMY TOH.......DOREEN IMELDA LEE and MY TRIC JIE JIE........TRICIA TAN......lolz i love them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they are simply the BEST..........hug u all tight tight gers!!!!!!............in fact i love my class alot........GROUP 10 is the BEST OF ALL!!!!!!!!!!! hooray!!..........and not forgetting someone veri important to me!!!!!!!! veri veri veri veri IMPORTANT.........he is MY dearest LAOGONG.............ZHANG JIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in 2004 i found the one i had been waiting for so long............I FINALLY FOUND HIM on 21/10/2004 time 12.34am !!!!!!! he is the best boyfrenz!!! the best partner to spend my life till the end of time.......I LOVE HIM MORE AND MORE........MUACK!!!
Finally my new year resolution is...........i wanna get into digital film sound and video.........all my frenz will be blessed........AND.......be wif him forever!!!!!!

2004-12-30T15:33:00.000-08:00

Chapter 31-----T H E C O U N T D O W N

todae is the count down day....going out wif him heehee....plus kelly and
my dearest nu er....HOHOHO...going to watch KUNG FU later....i now using his hse com....posting my blog....WOW time flies....one year had past.....recalling back...this year.....hmmm....is one of my most happiest....coz i found my dear Zhang jie....hahaha...so xing fu wif him now.....hmm i hope this coming 2005 everyone will be blessed just like me....and stay happy always....and i wish world will be peaceful without disaster!!!!

2004-12-24T19:01:00.000-08:00

Chapter 24>>>Christmas Eve.... I am sorry..

Todae....i was totally ready to go sch....den i receive my dear sms....saying NO SCH for todae...OMG....i was like....D I S A P P O I N T E D....lolx....coz i cant see him for todae!!! somemore is Christmas Eve....sob sob.....well nvm lahz....can see him on CHRISTMAS.... hohoho
hmm...todae tok to him i sound so sianz.....i think i must haf spoil his day ba....SO sorry....laogong...i dun mean to....forgive me ok...i play jia jia jiu wif u lolx....JUST HOPE U WILL HAF FUN TONITE!!! and wat u say todae....really touches me!....i feel so MOLESTED....love u so so so so so so much!!!!! Hmm...tonite...12 am i going to receive alot of calls lolz..hohoho....WISHING YA an advanced MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! "Santa, i wan zj for Christmas present this year!" lolx

2004-12-19T22:51:00.000-08:00

SCH REOPEN TOMOLO........HEEHEE

yay! tomolo sch reopen le....lolx....going to see those frenz i nv see for long...hee....Christmas is coming...HOHOHO.........i going out on CHRISTMAS going out wif meiyi and ling ling....YAY!!!!! hmmmmmmmmmm dun know wat to say liaoz.........but i am VERI HAPPY this few days!....and i just cut my hair!!!!!! lolz..........HEEHEE.........SEE YA FRENZ

2004-12-15T23:09:00.000-08:00

A memory name as PAST

Maybe...........they forget abt me.........my "present" does not matter to them anymore......haiz...well i just got to accept the fact tat we all are drifted apart........all the memory are now name as PAST

2004-12-13T21:14:00.000-08:00

Another sianz day......

Todae is just so boring............the whole day i do nothing but stare into space........arghz!!! haiz...sch going to start soon......and i still haven find a stable job..........dun know how to survive.....everything is just so sianz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! beepeng arhz.........wo hai zhen mei yong!!! shen mo dou zhou bu hao....zhi hui gei ren ma..........I need to wake up!!!.........JIA you JIA you

2004-12-13T13:11:00.000-08:00

Xing Xing bu zai kuai le....

If i haf a wish........i wish i dun haf a heart........so i wont feel anything........

2004-12-08T15:26:00.000-08:00

New Image!!

i changed my template....... coz just now my com got error everything GONE!!!!!!! so sad.........but i like this one tooooooo heeeeeee...........YAY!!!!!!!!!! tomolo is CHALET...........cant wait hahaha.....i'm sure it will be another memorable ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TRICIA...AMY....DOREEN...PEAR...LETS HAF LOTS OF FUN!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-12-04T23:53:00.000-08:00

" Many people will walk in and out of your life, " but only true friends leave footprints in your heart.

To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart.

Anger is only one letter short of danger.

If someone betrays you once, it is his fault; if he betrays you twice, it is your fault.

Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events;small minds discuss people.

He who loses money, loses much; he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all.

Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautiful old people are works of art.

Learn from the mistakes of others. You can’t live long enough to make them all yourself.

Friends, you and me. . . you brought another friend. . . and then there were three. . .we started our group. . . our circle of friends. . .and like that circle. . .there is no beginning or end. . .

Yesterday is history.

Tomorrow is a mystery.

Today is a gift.

That is why they call it the present

2004-12-04T23:31:00.000-08:00

JOHOR TRIP WIF MUMMY WAS GREAT!!!!

todae i went to johor...hahaha wif my mum....go there shopping....coz we long time never go there liaoz.....i see passport i found out tat my last visit was in 1999 which was 5 years ago...WOW!!!!!!!! tat time i onli....12 yrs old...lolz.....Haiz....Malaysia never change still so lagging in service....my mum and i got to "q" there for our passport to be chop....and u guess how long we waited......MORE DEN ONE HR sia!!!!!! standing somemore....OMG.....hahaha....but the waiting is worth lahz....we buy alot of things.....hahaha.......lolx.......i was quite sleepy...and got heavy headache coz the sun was damn hot.....my mum hire a cab...and the driver took us around....hahaha...nice ride!!.... den we decided to drop down at a shopping centre....and SHOP SHOP and SHOP....lolx.............. hahaah....the mac there got JACK JACK cushion sia....but they say haven start selling yet!!! sob....so i cant buy.........hahhha..........and the hp pouch all sold out.....JACK JACK is so "hot"....spore oso sold out..........hmmm our grp chalet is coming!!! hope to haf lots of fun there.......hmm.........da jia yao kai xin wor.......smile!!

2004-11-30T12:11:00.000-08:00

wat a boring day.............. i looking forward for chalet...

i am rotting.........lucky tomolo going out.....or else.....i will start to grow FUNGUS....lolz........heehee cya guys!!!! KENNETH IS SO LAME......lolz.........I MISS AMY....long time nv see her liaoz..........HAO XIANG NI ARHZ

2004-11-27T20:25:00.000-08:00

When i was young...........

Heehee.........todae go pai pai wif my mummy, San yi....Ah meiz....and AH BOI.......lolz....well quite fun lahz..........keep joking wif my mum.......lolx.........hahaha.........den eat alot todae toooo.......The temple never change at all...still the same......thought the building were all worn out but i still remember clearly....how i use to play around there........and the swing at the back is still there heehee.....i use to sit it wif my jie jie.......hmmmmm.....well...i asked my mummy a lot of qns todae....ask her why must pray wif joss stick...why must do this....why must do tat.........hahaha den she is so irritated...but hahah she never angry at all......lolz.....she just keep saying *Ah meiz arhz.....dun ask lahz(in hokkien)*....hahaha den i keep luffing...........den.....when she call me go and pray.........i pray for alot of ppl..........i pray for amy my +nu er+, doreen, tricia, kenneth, zhang jie my +dear+, and many many more plus my family members ----to be safe and happy always.......... i pray wif my eyes shut........and pray it wif my heart.......and i was standing.... when i open my eyes.......my mum was luffing at me....coz she was wondering why i pray so long........hahahah..........a bit pai seh sai........hahaha......heehee.......den i start to tok wif my cousin......AH BOI is my mum godson........hahaha my mum use to look after him........so he and me plus my jie.....veri close....i treat him like my real brother....lolx..........hahaha........ we tok abt past.......like how we ganna punish by my mummy when we are naughty......u know.........we got to kneel down and pull our ears.....lolz.....i now think liaoz wanna luff.........hahaha.........i miss those childhood life..........heehee

2004-11-24T23:54:00.000-08:00

U ALWAYS BRIGHTEN MY DAY..............

TRIC JIE JIE IS BACK...........i miss her so much........and she finally had come back!!!!!!!!! heehee.........must go out one day...hope to see ya soon............hmmmmmmm todae....went to Pasir Ris.......for the Wild Wild Wet Job.........hope will be employed ba........heehee......i have a FULLLLLLLLL and DELICIOUS DINNER tonite.........wif my laogong at TIONG BAHRU MARKET......lolx.........hahaha so long nv eat till so full liaoz....heehee........i enjoy my dinner wif u tonite.........we ate SATAY........JUI GEK.... oops i dun know how to spell..... =x lolz........and I ate duck rice.....WOW tats was so nice.....YUMMY!!! and laogong ate HOKKIEN MEE.......hahaha thks for the PRAWN dear!!!!! heehee......... next time wanna bring NU ER along......lolz........heehee.........NU ER MA MISS U heehee

2004-11-23T00:15:00.000-08:00

I WANNA BE HAPPY!!!!!!!!!

2004-11-13T22:50:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time, there live a ger who is crazy and weird....her name is NG BEE PENG

Well..........days are so sianz........haiz i started to miss my secondary school frenz againz.........i miss them all alot!!!.......alot!!!!......alot!!!!!.........i miss Jing Han....Ling Li....Meiyi......and Ah Sing........wo hao xiang ni men arhz...........ni men you mei you zai xiang wo....hai shi ba wo gei wang le......sob.....hmmmm..........todae wo he ta mei yuan fen......he sms me....say wanna see whether we got fate ma.....see can meet on MSN ma........hmmmmm.......actually i intend to log in at 1pm....but den....i was too eager to see him online and i log in at 12.35pm....yepz...we got no fate.....i didnt saw him there.........and i log off.......and den 10 min later.........i decide to log in againz...coz i was wondering whether at that moment i log off...he might have logged in.......BUT.......another disappointment he is not there..........and den.......i need to go out wif my mum liaoz........haiz......really no fate........well....this is onli just a "game"........but i dun know why i tend to take it so serious.....tat i feel sad abt this kind of hmmm "thing"............not veri sad but more of worry.........i guess i am mad lahz..........lolz........i guess i had fallen for him........until too DEEP liaoz.........until i cant even control myself.........and before i went out.........i sms him......i thought he will not reply me.......but he DID!!!!!!!! lolz....he asked me wat time i coming home.......tat time i was in bus 199.......i was smiling away.......i dun know why i felt happi abt tat......is like hahaha....dun know lehz......i always got this kind of weird but happi feeling whenever i receive his SMS.........maybe this is LOVE?!....lolz.........den after a long shopping wif my mum.......not veri long actually...lolz.....we went to sembawang........just to taste the seafood my mum heard from the broadcast...........bad luck......cant find the stall....i guess she heard wrongly......hahaha...........Den.......when i reach home.......the first thing i do is ONLINE........to see whether he is there.........and.......................HE IS THERE!!!!!!!!!!!.......lolz...........i was so happi when i saw his nick there........lolz............is this count as FATE?....haahah i dun know...........well........a promise to myself tat..........he will be my last one........ =)

2004-11-10T18:08:00.000-08:00

A Couple's Heartbreak

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.
The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.
When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.
What do you think were the four words?

The husband just said "I Love You Darling"
The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. Nopoint in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.

2004-11-10T18:04:00.000-08:00

MEANINGFUL STORIES

Time And Love

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others, including Love.
One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. All the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment.
When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help.
Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked Richness, "Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere."
Love then decided to ask Vanity, who was passing in a beautiful vessel, for help. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." "I can't help you," Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."
Next Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but I just need to be alone now."
Then Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him.
Love began to cry. Then she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder.
Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time," Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?" Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

2004-11-07T21:31:00.000-08:00

I AM JUST SIANZ.........

haiz.....this holiday dun know why so sianz.........i like eveyday oso online.......online till i am so sianz.........and talk till nth to tok like tat.........haiz.......i sianz till i am depressed........i now onli looking forward for my chalet.......on 9 dec to 11 dec........and my working days........hmmmmmm.........i feel tat i am veri bo liao sometimes........bo liaoz.... till do stupid things......hahaha.......well......lucky tomolo going out....or else i dun know wat i gonna do at home....................I MISS U AMY.....lolz.....i like long time nv see like tat....LOL....yay! tomolo can see u liaoz............todae......i went for a nap.........coz i really nth to do........i slept for 3 hours......and when i wake up is JUST so dark in my room.....i thought is already 12 plus but lucky is onli 8 plus.........haiz..........hmmmmmm.............dun know why todae so moody.......kai xin bu qi lai.....hope tomolo wont be like tat......... SMILE BEEPENG.......

2004-11-07T10:21:00.000-08:00

Ta Hai Bu Dong--------S.H.E

yao shuo she me
bei zi dou yi jing kong le
bi shang yan jing
xin li xia qi da xue
tian han you di dong
shi bu shi dao le
ai qing jie zhang de shi hou
zhi sheng xia ge zi mai dan de ji mo
wei she me dang wo tui kai men
ta men you lai la zhu wo
[Chorus:]ta hai bu dong,
hai shi bu dong
li kai shi xiang yao bei wan liu
ru guo kai kou na jiu shi
wo yao lai the wen rou
ta hai bu dong,
yong yuan bu dong
yi ge yong bao neng dai ti suo you
ai jue dui neng dai ti suo dong yao wo
yao yong she me
rong hua zhe yi pian ji mo
zai si zhou de long keng qi lian tan xi
hua zhe yan piao zhou
guo qu zhong zhong
zai xin li gun cheng xue qiu
pa hai mei shuo hua lei jiu hui xian liu
ai bu shi ta gei de bu duo
shi bu zhi dao wo yao she me
[Chorus]
dou shi bei le tai
duo de xin yuan
liu xing cai hui die de na me zhong
ai tai xin ye you
zui hui de shi hou
[Chorus]
zai di yi shi jian zhen jiu wo

2004-10-31T00:24:00.000-07:00

Finally Found--------Honey

Ooh ooh ooh
I can't believe you're here with meAnd now it seems my world's completeAnd I never want this moment to endI close my eyes and still I seeMy dreams become realityAnd now I know how it feels to be in loveI prayed so many nights that you would come my wayAn angel from above to light my darkest dayI think it's time for you to hear these lines'Cos there's something I want to say
I finally found what I've been looking forAnd now you know I'm going to love you moreHold me tight 'cos it's always been you(It's always been you)To think that you were always there (always there)To be my friend and wipe away my tearsNow it's clear that it's always been you
Sometimes you don't expect that friendsCan become lovers in the endOnly God knows what the future will bringSo hold me close and don't let go'Cos this is love boy, don't you know?And we're gonna be together for eternityI prayed so many nights that you would come my wayAn angel from above to light my darkest dayA love so strong it can't be wrongIt's with you that I belong

2004-10-30T23:04:00.000-07:00

YAY!!!!!! wo jue de wo hen xing fu.......LOL

heez.....yupz yupz.....wo jue de wo hen xing fu.......coz i got so many ppl care for me.......hahaha
i got amy wo de bao bei nu er....doreen wo de ma ma.....tric jie jie.......and wo de zhang da jie....LOL.......or zhang da sao.....he sure "k" me de.....lolz.......heehee.......hen kai xin......LOVE U ALL LOTS.....but love zj more lahz......hahahah....hmmmmmmm.......sianz....i now having my studio project......so so so TIRING.......everydae draw draw draw........i onli looking forward for BREAK time....coz can see someone lahz.......LOL......erm......you dian err xin....hahaha......

well todae i went to ART FRENZ wif my pig.........and we took neo print....wow......wo de bao bei.....i like them so much...hahaha.......and the chocolate too......hahaha THKS dear!!!!! hmmmmm den i went to my ah ma hse...sianz........ganna bully by my cousin againz.......wat lew..he poke my eyes and he kicked me so many times.......stupid man.....scold him oso no use......sianz.........HMMMMMM i start to miss my SIS.....lol.....she is in NUS hostel now.......i bet there must be quite boring and scary lor.......hahaha.......well jie jia you...study hard worZZZZ

2004-10-30T10:11:00.000-07:00

Always Come Back To Your Love

Yeah, check it outWhat, what, what, whatUh, you like that? UhCome on yeahUh, no doubtBreak it
I've been up and down (uh, what)Been going round and round (uh)I've been all over town (wha-what,uh)But I'll never ever find somebody new for sure(Yes, yes you are, left to right, yesYes you are and rock you all night)
Show me where I belong tonight (all night)Give me a reason to stayNo matter if I go left or right (left to right)I always come back to your love
I've been high and low (uh)I don't know where to go (no, baby)Because I love you so (you like that)And I'll never ever find someone like you for sure(Yes, yes you are, left to right, yesYes you are and rock you all night)
Show me where I belong tonight (all night)Give me a reason to stay (I need a reason, yeah)No matter if I go left or right (left to right)I always come back to your love(Back to your love, yeah)WoahNo matter if I go left or right (left to right)I always come back to your love (yeah)Woah
Show me love tonightI'm going left to rightNo matter where I goI always find your love
Show me where I belong tonight (all night)Give me a reason to stayNo matter if I go left or right (left to right)I always come back to your love
Show me where I belong tonight (all night)Give me a reason to stayNo matter if I go left or right (left to right)I always come back to your love
(Left to right, you like that?)Woah(let's go)Woah(Show me)I always come back to your love (all night)Woah(Uh)Woah (uh)(Left to right)I always come back to your love

2004-10-22T10:46:00.000-07:00

I feel so suffocated.......i am tire.......

hmmmmm.....sorry for not updating for so long......i lazy lahz.....yeahz....yesterdae i went to ZOO....well it was fun....but i dun like the SMELL of the animal i need to draw.....IS A COW......omg.......u all can imagine HOW NICE....a cow dung smell.......and after drawing i feel like i am filled wif this smell.......lolz......but amy say no.....lolz......hahaha....well....last few days.....i feel rather depressed.....but lucky.......got him wif me.......lolz...haiz....i just hope the day wont arrive so fast......coz.......i know it will be a hard day.......and......i feel so tire..each time......i lie........u know......I DUN WAN TO.......i really dun......but i cant say the truth.........coz...fact is just too hard to accept........haiz........hmmmmmmm.............well.... i hope we can get over this.....no matter wat.........i wont leave u all....I WONT........i will stay there even if u hate me even if u dun wan me to...even.......u find me irritating...... I JUST WONT LEAVE U all BEHIND.....this is the promise i make to myself.............i wanna cry wif u all i wanna feel the way the u all feel.........i promise......and i wanna tell u......every lie i told u.........it HURTs me DEEP.....i just cant tell u the truth........i am sorry..........pls forgive me........

2004-10-15T19:28:00.000-07:00

Wo de zhen xin hua........

hmm.....i got alot of things to write but.....dun know which to write first.....hahaha.....hmmm these few days i am so busy....busy wif assignments.....chiong till 5 am den slp for the UM poster......haiz...and i overslept tat day...got to take a cab.....and guess wat....it costs me $19 from BOON LAY to NYP.....lolz....so ex sia........broke liaoz lor.....hahaha......sianz....i going to start working soon........dun know can cope wif my sch work anot.....haiz......i hope can ba......hmmmm.......u know....i start to like my frenz alot alot......they are all SO GOODzZZZZz......hahaha....i like the way we share our secrets and those lame jokes we haf....LOL......so glad to find u all....<<>> not forgetting an jie oso....hahaha he become one of our sisters liaoz.....hahaha......is just so great to haf u all around me...and brighten up my life....wo tai xing fu le.... =) ..........Wo de zhen xin hua----THKS so much god....hmm...haha....u know....i finally found my Mr. Right......hahaha.......and...i hope my frenz can find theirs too..... hmmm.......i just hope tat the days ahead are smooth and never never never end...... =) hmm....honestly, i sometimes still will thought of my ex.....yahz....coz i once love him very deep before......but the memories of him......is fading away......i am start to forget how he look like.....and everything...only the HURT that i can rmb so clearly.......till now.......i guess i cant forget.....hmm...tats may be the reason why.......i dun wanna get into a relationship......i just dun wanna ill-treat myself againz....one is enough....i dun wan a second one.......i seriously DUN wish is him......i wish he is my last and only one......but....i just need more time....is not i dun believe him....is just the fear inside tat i still cant get rid off..........i wanna love him slowly....i dun wanna rush things....coz i know....once i go too fast....i will lose him easily......i believe he oso may feel the same way as me.....hmm...just dun wanna lose "u".....

2004-10-10T23:06:00.000-07:00

Haiz.......why are human so scary??

hmm.....i realise sth......human are so scary....the scariest creature of all.......they seem to change at any moment....one moment can be so good wif you another moment he/she might be toking bad abt u........haiz........why must ppl put on mask.......dun they feel tire doing so.......dun they feel bad????? haiz........i dun like ppl like tat lor.......i like ppl who are real.....the real self........

2004-10-09T23:04:00.000-07:00

BORING DAY....but HAPPY DAY too =)

hmm...todae quite sianz lah...coz nv go out ma....heehee...stay at home pei wo de mummy....lolz....she so good bought me ice cream...hahah...yummy...nice nice....(dun jealous)
Well.....hmm....todae tok alot wif amy....and tric jie jie....haha....still to realise sth....I LOVE THEM more and more....=) cant live without them....xie xie ni god...for letting me know them...and be part of them.....THIS IS FATE that bring us together.....lolz....hugzZzZ....we will be there for each other always!!!!!! I PROMISE....got anything must let me know....let me care for u all okok....

2004-10-08T21:11:00.000-07:00

I am Confuse....hmm am i doing the right thing?? i feel bad =(

Haiz....i dun know why...i suddenly got a feeling tat....i am doing the wrong thing.....hmm...whenever i saw her toking to him or wat....i feel a bit "weird"...and at the same time feel bad too....hmm i dun know lahz....den...is like...hmm how to say...like i should not be close to him....or else i like let "her" down like tat....hmm...i am so confuse....sigh....if i were her....i definitely wont feel good....haiz....wat can i do?? love cant be force.....let fate decide ba......and...i dreamt of him yesterdae nitez againz.... =j

Today...netball was fun....lolz....alot of ppl play todae....i njoy myself alot...haha....but den i hurt my big toe...lolz....so painful now...keke.... go home....was raining so heavily...i dun haf umbrella...so hahahah walk in the rain.....is cold..but hmm fun?? lolz.....now keep on sneezing....die...must haf catch a cold againz...hahaha.....sianz....

2004-10-07T00:43:00.000-07:00

A New Story....Of my Life......

Once a story end.....another begin....i remember a frenz told me this before....life is full of story...some end wif a happy ending...some end wif a sad ending....but...wat is most important is...he or she is part of your story before.... =) No regret....lolz....oh well...god start to treat PENG well liaoz....i start to live life happier le....maybe becoz of him....i guess....lolz... hee...hee...my dream are getting sweeter....thus...i love to sleep alot nowadays...hope to see u tonight....lolz........ =)

2004-10-06T00:45:00.000-07:00

Hui Zhe Chi Ban De Nu Hai

Dang wo hai shi
Yi ge meng dong de nu hai
Yu dao ai bu dong ai
Cong guo qu dao xian zai
Zhi dao ta ye li kai
Liu wo zai yun hai pai huai
Ming bai mei ren neng qu dai
Ta cheng gei wo de xin lai

See me fly I'm proud to fly up high
Bu neng yi zhi yi lai
Bie ren gei wo yong dai
Believe me I can fly I'm singing in the sky
Jiu suan feng yu fu gai
Wo ye bu pa zhong lai

Wo yi bu shi
Na ge meng dong de nu hai
Yu dao ai yong li ai
Reng xin zhen ai
Feng yu lai bu bi kai
Qian xu ba tou di xia lai
Xiang sha ou lai qu tian di
Zhi wei xun yi ge qi ji

See me fly I'm proud to fly up high
Sheng ming yi jing da kai
Wo yao ni zhong jing cai
Believe me I can fly I'm singing in the sky
Ni cheng jing dui wo shuo
Zuo yong gan de nu hai

Wo pan you yi tian neng he ni xiang jian
Jiao ao di dui zhe tian kong shuo shi jie zhe ni de feng

Let me fly I'm proud to fly up high
Sheng ming yi jing da kai
Wo yao ni zhong jing cai
Believe me I can fly I'm singing in the sky
Ni cheng jing dui wo shuo
Zuo yong gan de nu hai

Wo bu hui gu dan
Yin wei ni dou zai

2004-10-04T23:40:00.000-07:00

"Breakaway"

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

2004-10-02T01:40:00.000-07:00

Haiz......i dun know wat i thinking...i dun understand myself....i am a weird ger...

Ppl say...the only one person who truly understands u....is YOU...yourself....but for me......i dun understand myself at ALL.......i dun know wat i thinking sometimes.......i dun know wat i really wan....i dun know wat are the goals in my life...i dun know the meaning of my life....i dun know....everything...even sch work....i like so lost........haiz........i really dun know lorz............everytime i just trying to escape....ESCAPE AND ESCAPE......and just dun dare to face my problems......i onli know how to avoid AVOID and AVOID..........i lost my courage...i lost my love.....i lost my spirit.....i lost my memories............all i am left wif........is a BLANK mind......a BLANK life.......everything is BLANK.......and i am too tire to start all over again.....

2004-09-29T23:54:00.000-07:00

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind
I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start
* Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall
You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time[Repeat *]Oh pretty boySay you love me too[Repeat *]

Cannot Go MSN =(

2004-09-29T01:58:00.000-07:00

haiz........i cannot go msn.......dun know why.........maybe ganna virus liaoz........sad sia........haiz haiz haiz.......hmmmmm.....wanted to tell tricia sth todae....den cannot go msn!!!!! SAD......well i tell her tomorrow den......haiz....is it truth??? if it is i think i should avoid him le.........coz......frenz is more important..........HAIZ..i dun know lahz.......i feel so frustrated wif my com!! STUPID DIAN NIAO!!! WO HEN NI...HEN XI NI!!! lolz

2004-09-28T01:25:00.000-07:00

HAIZ......is she attach to him le.....i doubt

todae check friendster...den found out her..."in a relationship" the first image that pop ups in my mind is HIM.......is HIM....i dun know is it him........even it is........oso not my problem but but but WHY.......i still feel kinda hurt........like a stab.....i dun know....i thought i grt over it liaoz.......haiz.......anyway bless them if they are really together.......yao xing fu

2004-09-25T15:19:00.000-07:00

My Friend when I think of you.I think of all that we've been through.All the times we argue and fight,I know deep inside that it isn't right.I, then feel bad and alot of pain.It feels like I've fallen from the sky like the rain.I love you dear friend with all of my heart.But now that you're gone I've fallen apart.I'm getting better as the days go by.I wish sometimes this was all a big lie.I pray to you every night.It's like you're my fire, a burning light. My dear friend, I miss you alot.I still wonder why you were put in that spot.I know you're in a place much better than here. Watching and helping me with all of my fear.Our friendship my dear friend,we will have to the end.Friends til the end is what we will be.Someday we'll be together,together you and me.

2004-09-24T01:10:00.000-07:00

Whenever Sang My Songs
On The Stage On My Own
Whenever Said My Words
Wishing They Would Be Heard
I Saw You Smiling At Me
Was It Real Or Just My Fantasy?
You'd Always Be There In The Corner
Of This Tiny Little Bar
My Last Night Here For You,
Same Old Songs Just Once More
My Last Night Here With You?
Maybe Yes, Maybe No
I Kinda Liked It Your Way
How You Shyly Placed Your Eyes On Me
Oh, Did You Ever Know That I Had Mine On You*
Darling, So There You Are With That Look On Your Face
As If You're Never Hurt,
As If You're Never Down
Shall I Be The One For You
Who Pinches You Softly But SureI
f Frown Is Shown Then I Will Know That
You Are No Dreamer
*So Let Me Come To You,
Close As I Wanna Be
Close Enough For Me To Feel Your Heart Beating Fast
And Stay There As I Whisper,
How I Loved Your Peaceful Eyes On Me
Did You Ever Know That I Had Mine On You
Darling, So Share With Me Your Love If You Have Enough
The Tears If You're Holding Back
Or Pain If That's What It Is
How Can I Let You Know I'm More Than The Dress & The Voice
Just Reach Me Out And You Will Know That You Are Not Dreaming

2004-09-21T11:23:00.000-07:00

"In a perfect world, when he's with her, he would be wishing he was with me; when he looked at her, he would be looking at me; when he smiled at her, his smile would be for me; when he thought about someone, he would be thinking about me. In a perfect world, he would realize that she wasn't the one he was supposed to be with and I would still be standing here waiting for him still when he finally knows this. But this isn't a perfect world and people do get hurt, you smile when you feel like crying, you act like you're okay when you're falling apart inside and you let it go. You move on, because there's nothing else you can do." ~Unknown

"Somehow, the conversation mentioned your name, and someone asked if I knew you. Looking away, I thought of all the times we had together, sharing laughter, tears, jokes, and tons more, and then with out an explanation you were gone. I looked to where they were waiting for an answer, and then said softly 'once... I thought I did.'" ~Unknown

"Sometimes I wake up crying at night and sometimes I scream out your name. What right does she have to steal your heart away when for so long you were mine? I remember when you were mine." ~Unknown

"I know as long as you are happy I can get through this, but it still kills me to see you with her. Not because she is perfect for you, not because she makes you smile, not because she is what you need, but because I know that she deserves you more than I do, and that pain is indescribable." ~Kate Russell

"When these days are gone, when all the love we gave to each other slowly fades away, when your beautiful smile is only here as a dream, and when the words 'I love you' are scripts of the past, I will always have the memories that were once moments, and I will always know that no matter what, I got the chance to be loved by you." ~Unknown

"The worst feeling in the world is to love and hate a person all in the same second." ~Unknown

2004-09-21T01:32:00.000-07:00

I duN wIsH tO gO HoMe

i have enough of wat i got now....really enough....sick of my parents...and sick of my sister......haiz...i always get scolding for no reason....since they hate me so much...may as well dun give birth to me....WHY BRING ME TO THIS WORLD........i hate to be alive facing all these STUPID problems and stress....i veri tire.......who can take me away.....far away.........i dun wish to suffer from this pain anymore.............................

2004-09-20T23:32:00.000-07:00

I AM TIRE.............

Im tired of pretending, that everything is right, everything is ok!, its not and neither am i, i cant go on living how i am, smiling and laughing when on the inside im died, tired of trying to make everyone around me happy.IS TAT wat i really wan in my life????........i dun know.........i am lost.....confuse......haiz.......if i can choose....i rather be alone.......even though i will be lonely but at least it wont be so painful as being hurt......

2004-09-20T23:13:00.000-07:00

BIG BIG WORLD.........

I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much... I can see the first leaf falling it's all yellow and nice It's so very cold outside like the way I'm feeling inside I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much... Outside it's now raining and tears are falling from my eyes why did it have to happen why did it all have to end I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much... I have your arms around me ooooh like fire but when I open my eyes you're gone... I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much... I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do feel I will miss you much miss you much...

2004-09-20T01:07:00.000-07:00

LEAVE ME ALONE

The sun goes black the trees turn browni am alone no ones aroundi sit here and thinkthis world is full of beatiful things......i just cant seem to find them

Please tell me your happy, tell me your ok, tell me exactly about your day. i need a laugh, i dont want to cry, i just don't want to live a lie. So make me smile one last time, tell me that your doing fine.

It scares me when I understand,It scares me when I don't, It scares me when I'm not depressed,It scares me when I am,It scares me when I can feel the pain,But it scares me most when I'm numb.

When you're alone, it's better because nobody knows you.When no one's your friend, its better because nobody leaves you.

2004-09-18T11:42:00.000-07:00

Ji Shi Ben- sung by Kelly Chan

Fan kai sui shen xi dai de ji shi ben
Letting go of the dairy that I wrote in before sleep.
Xie zhe xu duo shi dou shi guan yu ni
Primarily everything I wrote is about you
Ni tao yan bei leng luo xi guan bei shou hou
Your hatred has calmed, habits has passed.
Ji mo cai chao wo
Loneliness is calling me.
Wo kan jian zi ji xie xia de xin qing
I can see the emotions I have written down.
Ba zi ji fang zai bei wei de hou tou
I have put myself in the background
Deng ni deng tai jiu xiang ni lei hui liu
Waiting for you too long, thinking of you makes the tears fall.
Er xin fu kuai le shi shen me
What is ?Fortunate and Happiness??
Ai de tong le tong de ku le
Love until it hurts, hurts until I cried.
Ku de lei le ri ji ben li yue yue zhi zhuo
All cried out and tired, I would still have to get on with my day.
Ji zai zhe ni de hao, xiang shang yin de du yao
Only wish you well, (think the sounds are from you ?)
Ta fan fu pian zhe wo
But it constantly deceives me.
Ai de tong le tong de ku le
Love until it hurts, hurts until I cried.
Ku de lei le mao dun xin li zong shi qiang qiu
All cried out and tired, the dilemma (irritation) in my heart still exists.
Quan zi ji yao fang shou bi shang yan rang ni zou
pleading with myself to let go, closes my eyes and let you go.
Shao diao ri ji chong xin lai guo
and take the days and start a new day.

2004-09-17T01:15:00.000-07:00

cOld cold Cold.......DuLL dUll day........

todae raining again....so cold...lucky i wear long sleeves lolz.......sianz ar.......todae UM presentation i present like shit.......tok craps....so chiam....LOL....well must jia you lor....haiz....well..i change my blog song again.....DIDO white flag......hmmm nice song hahah......although heard liao will wanna sleep but.....is quite meaningful....i like the tune.....heehee........hmmm i dun know why...i so different from others sometime.....i like to listen to sad songs.......hahaha well maybe i am a negative minded ger ba.......hahah OK i will try to be positive de OK....lol......dun know why tonite so energetic....maybe coz i afternoon got slept for 1 hour...heehee....haiz......yesterdae "he" sms me a forward message.....>> no feeling>> all dead liao......glad that is has finally been over.......ZHONG QIU JIE cuming le......still remember last year i spent my lantern festival wif "him" and some frenz....hmmm......i guess this year I WONT BE ALONE....hahaha coz i got LINGLI and MEIYI ma......LOL......even dun have him.....PENG YE HUI HEN KUAI LE........wo yao xing fu.......he oso must................................................................................

2004-09-16T20:02:00.000-07:00

Dido---White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you, I'll tell you that.But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again And I caused but nothing but trouble I understand if you can't talk to me again And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet Which I'm sure we will All that was then Will be there still I'll let it pass And hold my tongue And you will think That I've moved on....
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be

2004-09-16T01:00:00.000-07:00

UM.....UM......UM.....i DUN LIKE.....UM

Sianz ar........so tire now.....just finish my UM.......HISTORY HISTORY......i hate it lehz...no choice oso.....i like this course so must strive on......lolz....sianz....anyway........i never regret joining this course la........coz....i met alots of NICE ppl........hee.......MY CLASSMATES are all so WONDERFUL........lol........hahahaha.........glad to be in group 10 worz.......I AM SO TIRE...keep on yawning lolz.....oh ya.........i own KELLY one chocolate....tomolo must gif him....HEY thKs KENNETH!!!! for the "close passage" arhz.....lolz...... k la late le......i wanna be pig liaoz......go orhz orhz.........ZHANG JIE oso BETTER SLEEP EARLY.......lolz........NITE NITE........

2004-09-14T01:03:00.000-07:00

A NEW DAY.......MONDAY....

well....todae i late for lecture.....lolz....no choice i live too far le......haiz.....cannot call the train to move faster oso wat....lolz....sianz ar sianz.....wo jue de wo yue lai yue mei you yong....lolz....so stupid lehz......well.......cant help la...born to be stupid....oso cannot blame ma....dui ma???......hmmm.....got a few times wanna tell him my feelings..........but.......just dun dare to la........i no courage....to love againz.........maybe.......i should give up ba........i think i should......k la
late le wan an

2004-09-12T23:45:00.000-07:00

Hua Xiang
Feng, mei you fang xiang de chui lai
Yu, ye gen zhao bei shang qi lai
Mei you ren neng gao su wo
Ai shi zai shen me shi hou qiao qiao zou kai
Feng, ban zhao hua xie le you kai
Yu, ba yan lei luo xiang da hai
Xian zai de wo zai ming bai
Ni bao zhao zi se de meng xuan ze deng dai
Ji yi shi zhen zhen hua xiang
Wo me shuo hao shui dou bu neng wang
Shou zhao hei ye de yang guan
Nan guo que jia zhuang jian qiang
Deng dai de ri zi li, ni bi wo yong gan
Ji yi shi zhen zhen hua xiang
Yi qi zou guo yong yuan bu neng wang
Ni de wen rou shi yang guang
Ba wo de wei lai tian men
Ti xing wo hua xiang chang zai, jiu xiang wo de ai
Ji yi shi zhen zhen hua xiang
Yi ji zou guo yong yuan bu neng wang
Ni de wen rou shi yang guang
Ba wo de wei lai tian men
Feng chui qi hua de wiang wei, jiu xiang ni de ai

2004-09-12T23:35:00.000-07:00

I CARRY YOUR HEART WITH ME

i carry your heart with me,
i carry it in my heart and i'm never without it.
anywhere i go, you go, my dear.
and whatever is done, by only me, is your doing, my darling.
i fear no fear for you are my fate, my sweet.
i want no world for beautiful, you are my world my true.
it's you or whatever a moon has always meant,
and whatever a sun will always sing is you.
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the tree called life
which grows higher and higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart,
i carry it in my heart

2004-09-12T22:18:00.000-07:00

Xing Fu De Shun Jian

Dang qiu tian,
zai lai de shi hou
Ni yao wo,
xiao zhe qu ai qu yong you.
Jiu suan shi,
zai duan zhan de wen rou
Neng chong feng,
zhe ren ci yi zu gou.
Ke zhi dao,
you xie shi you xie ren
Ting liu zai,
fa sheng de na tian bu ken zou.
Kan shi guang de can ku,
she bu de bei yi wang
Zhe ming yun, wo heng man zu,
you ni pei ban de xing fu.

Wei ni da kai, shi jian de suo, rang ai zi you,
bu bei ta shu fu
Shi ku guo, ye zheng zha guo,
xin rang tong nian guo.
Deng na yi tian, luo ye jing jing piao yan qian,
yi bu zai shang bei
Yong heng zhong yi xiang xin le xing fu de shun jian.

Wei ni da kai, shi jian de suo, rang ai zi you,
bu bei ta shu fu
Mei yi miao, dou bu hou hui, wo pei ni ti hui.
Guo qu wei lai qing qing chong die,
qing yuan liang tian tian de yan lei
Gai xie jing shen yi ni zai,
xing fu de shun jian, yi wei...

2004-09-12T22:12:00.000-07:00

wO xIaNg Wo sHi aI sHaNg Le XuN yI cAo....

Xun yi cao de hua yu shi......deng dai ai qing.....hen gan ren de ai qing gu shi......
the weekend....i have been watching this show call LAVENDER....so touching....and i cry...lolz......it let me realise the.......courage to love...and live....ZHI YAO YONG LI HU XI....JIU NENG KAN JIAN QI JI......i will always remember de.........

2004-09-09T16:39:00.000-07:00

ToO bUsY....... -_-'"

haiz....i never update for 2 days le....coz too busy liaoz.....busying wif ASSIGNMENTS....sigh...so tire....hmm....hmm...dun know wat to write oso lor....just suddenly wondering how "he" has been.....well frenz out there dun worry...i have already get over him....okie....hmmm i will find a guy 10 0000000times better den him de la....lolz....my life now is so different den last time....too busy to find one now.....everyday piled with work and work!!! lolz....hmmm just hope that "he" is fine out there ba.....though i promise myself wont wanna botther about him ever again...but after all he is still a frenz i should say....a frenz that i will told myself that i wont care for him too much....yupz.....just hope "he" is doing fine.....Just hope that GOD will take care of everyone....regardless is good or bad....DA JIA YI DING YAO XING FU........YING WEI....SHEN MING SHI NAN MO DE ZHEN GUI.............

2004-09-06T22:52:00.000-07:00

RaInInG dAy..........sO COldzzZZ.............

wOw....todae rain till so heavy...i was like shivering the whole afternoon...keke......well todae quite sianz...coz the Um lecture is so boring lor........tok abt HISTORY..........really hen wu liao......lucky got tricia sitting next to me and tok....or else...i will...bore to death...lolx...haiz...i got more and more works to do AGAIN.....gonna sleep late everydae le.....I GOING TO BECUM PANDA LIAO LORz......hahaha.......sianz....now take break so write my blog...later going to do DF liaoz....sianz man!!!! but busy oso good la.......so i wont anyhow think........later spoil my mood again...keke.......OMG he really look like ZZC...(the side view)...lolz.....but....haha....he is not the one la....u all should know........k la...wan an...bee gonna go do work liaoz.......NITE NITE

2004-09-05T18:44:00.000-07:00

Kiss - Because I'm A Girl (English)
i just cant understand the hearts of men they tell you they want you and then they leave you this is the first time, you're special i believed those words and i was so happy you should have told me you didn't like me any more but i couldn't see that and you just rushed me although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything i heard that if you give up things too easily to a man, he will get bored with you i don't think this is wrong a girl says that she will never befooled again but she will fall in love again you should have told me you didn't like me any more but i couldn't see that and you just rushed me although i will curse you i'llstill miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything [narration] Hey babe the pain it's not enough to describe how i feel we were so happy together but i know now i've been blind you told me that youd never let me down whenever i needed you you'd always be here i can forgive but i cant forget even though you hurt me i still love you i still love you don't take advantage of a girl'swillingness to do anything for love and her caring instinct i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love iseverything

2004-09-05T18:27:00.000-07:00

WHERE IS EVERYONE??

sigh.....peng is lost...in my own world.....i miss my netball frenz....haiz....if that time nv quarrel...we will still veri veri close....i wish i can turn back time......i wish lorz......but....haiz....hope they will feel the same way as me....
todae i saw the JAY ZHOU---jie kou lyric...suddenly thought oh HIM again...the meaning in the songs is so suitable for him i should say...but.....i wont be xin luan again......haiz............... too late to turn back liao.....too late le....

2004-09-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

Boring Day.......-_-'''

Sianz....todae so boring....stay at home and rot...lolz...and i never done much of my work oso...keke....feeling guilty....well...at night...went to my ah ma house....now den came home.....i ate so full there....keke.....haiz....sianz ar sianz ar....got to go sch on mondae le....no mood to go back at all....i still in the HOLIDAY MOOD sia......hahaha.....wonder hows meiyi...ling li and han..doing....guess they must be as busy as me ba....hmmm maybe i more slack den them lor...lolz....i getting lazier...and lazier....hahaha...MUST WAKE UP LIAO.....k la i end here....got to go do work le....wan an....

2004-09-04T13:19:00.000-07:00

JAY ZHOU-----JIE KOU

fan zhe wo men de zhao pian / xiang nian ruo yin ruo xian
Flipping through our photographs, thoughts of [you] are visible yet invisible

qu nian de dong tian / wo men xiao de hen tian
Last year's winter, we laughed very sweetly

kan zhe ni ku qi de lian / dui zhe wo shuo zai jian
Watching your tearstained face, telling me goodbye

lai bu ji ting jian / ni yi zou de hen yuan
[I] have yet to hear it when you've already walked so far

ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo / ye su yi jing hen nan hui tou
Perhaps you have already given up on me, perhaps it is already very difficult to turn back

wo zhi dao shi zi ji cuo guo / qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo
I know it's all my fault, please give me another reason, say you don't love me

jiu suan shi wo bu dong / neng bu neng yuan liang wo
Even if I don't understand, can [you] forgive me?

qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu
Please don't use parting (breakup) as your request

wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou / shi ni shou shang de jie kou
I know wanting to go is your wound's excuse

qing ni hui tou / wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou
[Can] you please turn back, I will accompany you until the very end

jiu suan mei you jie guo / wo ye neng go cheng shou
Even if there is no conclusion, I can still endure

wo zhi dao ni de tong / shi wo gei de cheng nuo
I know your pain is the promise I gave

ni shuo gei guo wo zong rong / chen mo shi yin wei bao rong
You said [you] gave me tolerance, and silence was because of acceptance

ru guo yao zou / qing ni ji de wo / ru guo nan guo / qing ni wang le wo
If [you] want to go, please remember me, if [you] feel sad, please forget me

98 DEGREES - Why (Are We Still Friends) Lyrics

2004-09-03T22:10:00.000-07:00

98 DEGREES - Why (Are We Still Friends) Lyrics

We do almost everything that lovers do
And that’s why it’s hard, just to be friends with you
Every time your heart is broken by the fool
I want you to know that it hurts me too
It’s hard to wipe your tears away (tears away)
Knowing that you should be with me
Now tell me why

[CHORUS:]

Why – why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than we are
And tell me why every time I find
Someone that I like
We always end up just being friends (Just Being Friends)

I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say
If I’m always scared I’ll lose you anyway
Somehow somewhere I’ve got to choose (got to choose)
No matter if it’s win or lose
Now tell me why

[CHORUS]

I don’t wanna be like your brother
I don’t wanna be your best friend
I only wanna be your lover
When will this end
If I told you that I wanna be in your life
Then you could be

NICE PIC

2004-09-03T21:00:00.000-07:00

MY NEW BLOG

2004-09-03T20:50:00.000-07:00

OMG......i have been creating my blog the whole dae...lolz.......finally finsh liao.......so happy....keke.......me yesterdae went to SENTOSA wif my NEW gang....hmmm it was quite fun...keke.....me and amy first time went for kayaking.....hahaha..and we manage to taste the SEA WATER...which was damn SALTY...lolz......but it is was FUN!!!!!! lolz......Todae is fridae...which means.......my term break is gonna end le.....haiz......i will be covered wif ASSIGNMENTS and PROJECTS againz......sigh...TIME PASSES SO FAST......well i started to miss my frenz even more hahaha.......hope to catch up wif them soon.......hee...... THREE LITTLE PIGS... & FAITH FAMILY.........wo yi shen zhong jue bu hui wan ji de!!!!!!!!!! MISS YOU GALS>>>>> NETBALL>>>>> YS, C, J, LL,MY,JH,BP......................................miss u all lots.......